Over the past few days as I’ve gone about life at a different pace, the presence of the Lord has been very near to me. I have been busy at home helping my boys with their schoolwork, but in stolen moments I can feel the Lord so near.
One day in the beginning of this – on our way to school – I told the boys, “Sometimes God makes us lie down.” Maybe it was because I had read earlier about our missionary to Brazil – Bennie DeMerchant – his airplane wreck, and how he ended up with two broken legs. He stated how God makes us lie down sometimes. Maybe it was that, or maybe it was God putting into my heart preparation for what is now. Either way, when He makes us lie down, there is a battle between us and the Spirit. I’ve found so many other things to fill my time. My mind felt crazy trying to fill the void of work and routine, and yet all the time, I could feel the Lord trying to pull me to Him. When I would stop throughout the day, and pause, listen, feel… He was there. He is there. He is here.
Our lives are consumed by “WORLD” standards of reaching, achieving, becoming. I compare myself daily with a measuring stick I’ve allowed to be created by external influence. Not all bad influences, just when I’ve had a pause in my life, I can tell God is trying to say something. Say something to me, to my heart, my soul. It can’t be just to me because He has caused the world to lie down.
I know personally my days are full. Full of what I think is right and good to do. Full of doing good things. Full of doing what is right, but I really believe this time of lying down, the fighting it, the hustle to fill the void of what once was there – there is so much more to this “life”. How much time do I really devote to what HE wants? How much time do I really spend talking, not just requesting, to Him? How much time do I spend reading and studying His Word and not just rushing through and hoping something sticks to get me through the day? When was the last time I truly just felt Him near because distractions of even good things were out of the way?
We are only here for a season of time. A vapor…what type of life am I really living for Him? D.L. Moody’s quote, “The world has yet to see what God can do with one man WHOLLY committed to Him.” Wholly committed. What does that really mean? To me, it causes me to evaluate everything I’m doing. EVERYTHING! Am I wholly committed? Am I doing _________ because God has placed it in my life to do? Am I being a faithful steward of the gift He has given to me, or have I buried it? In doing so, am I hindering His work because doing what He wants will take MY time. It will push me out of my comfort zone. Do I feel Him in what I’m doing?
My life ought to be lived in the presence of God. He shouldn’t have to make me know He is there. How wonderful to know He will, and He does make me aware! In this world that fights for our souls and demands answers, there is a God who created us, that is fighting as well for our eternal soul. He longs for our attention. He longs for our commitment…WHOLLY! Meaning: ENTIRELY! TOTALLY! ALTOGETHER! What would my world look like if that were the case? What would be on my plate if I was WHOLLY committed to Him? Maybe not as much? Maybe something different?
He is quietly, peacefully calling out, “Be still…and know…lie down.” My prayer now is to let my heart hear what You are saying to me, to Your people. Help me clear this time, to feel Your Spirit, to feel You drawing me closer to You. Help me not to miss what You are trying to do in my heart personally, creating something more. Let me, my heart, my soul BE STILL. Let me, my heart, my soul, LIE DOWN. To be with You is all I want. To know You, Your voice, Your heart. In this time of pulling, help me fight against my flesh, what I want, my way, and simply … lie down … be still … and know.
by: Sis. Amanda Kelley